aaj bahut dino bad kuchh likh raha hoon..............missing her a lot...kuchh dinon se wo yahan par nahi hai ..yahan nahi hai means apne ghar pr nahi hai....apne sister k yahan hai...miss to wo v bahut krti hogi...pata nahi is rishte ka kya anjam hone wala hai...kuchh dino bad shadi ho jayegi..jis k bina ek pal  v rehne ka dil nahi karta us k bina sari umar rehna parega...han is bat ki khushi jaroor hai k wo ab samajh gayi hai k wo meri nahin hone wali hai ab ab pehle k tarah bechain nahi hoti hai...jhoot sach bol kar samjha to diya hai maine par khud ko kaise samjhaoon......

BARA AJEEB SA SITUATION ME AA KAR FIR FANSE HUE HAIN..AAGE JAYEN K PEECHE JAYEN YA FIR WAHIN KHARA RAHEN JAISA K WO CHAHTI HAI.....aaj kal msg se rojana bat ho hi jati hai......baut achha lagta hai us se bat kar k par kab tak bahut jaldi sitution aur v jyada kharab ho jayega...

ek bhai hai uska jo usko duniya ki har khushi dena chahta hai..yahi kam to hum v kar rahe hain par dono k tarike me bahut difference hai...wo mera tarika kavi nahi accept kar sakta nd hum uska tarika kavi nahi accept kar sakte....wo v apne jagah sahi hai nd hum v.....

"HO JAYE TO FIR KHATAM NAHI HOTA,,YE KAMBAKHT ISHQ V GAREEB K QARZ JAISA HI HAI"

AAJ KAL MSG SE BAT HO TO RAHA HAI...PAR KAB TAK?..KAB YE DIL MANEGA K WO MERI NAHI RAHI AB.....BARA COMPLICATED LOVE STORY HAI MERA..IS STORY KA KYA CLIMAX HOGA PATA HI NAHI CHALL RAHA...USKI SHADI LAGVAG FINAL HO CHUKI HAI PAR AAJ V WO HUMSE UTNA HI PYAR KARTI HAI JITNA K MAI..MERE BEGAIR EK PAL V REHNA NAHI CHAHTI HAI...KHUDA JANE USKO HUMSE ITNI MUHABBAT KAISE HAI....


"RAT ME MSG SE BAT KARTI HAI WO HUMSE" PAR JYADA DIN NAHI KAR PAYEGI I KNW JALDI HI KOI NA KOI USKO DEKH HI LEGA MOBILE USE KARTE HUE FIR YE KISSA V KHATAM HO JAYEGA....PAR KISSA SIRF THORI DER K LIYE HI KHATAM HOGA COZ I KNW WO FIR HUMSE BAT KAREGI CHAHE HUM KAHIN V RAHEN......


EK BHAI HAI USKA".........." EK ACHHA INSAN EK FAMILIAR BOY EK JIMMEDAR ADMI..HAR WO KHUBI JO INSAN KO BEHTAR BANATI HAI WO HAI USME ND I RESPECT HIM A LOT....KAL WO USNE JO V KIYA MERE STH WO SAHI THA I ACCEPT IT....WO APNI SISTER KO DUNIYA KI HAR KHUSHI DENA CHAHTA HAI...PAR USKI SISTER K SATH MERA RELATION HO YE WO KAVI BARDASHT NAHI KAREGA......SAHI V HAI MERI AUKAT HI KYA HAI UN LOGON K SAMNE.....

"so finally mobile un tak pahunch hi gaya" aaj bat ho raha us se via msg bahut achha lag raha hai...kafi din ho gaye hain us se thik se bat kiye hue..is liye bahut khushi ho rahi hai...ye khushi v jyada dino tak nahi rehne wali hai i know.....i know well k mobile us k pas hai is bat ki khabar baht jald hi lag jayega us ke ghar walon ko nd fir watt lagega mera......par um karein v to kya karein us ne manga mobile to humko dena to hai hi...sab kuch bardasht kar k jee lenge par ye bardasht kr k jeena mushqil lagta hai k maine chhor diya usko...uske ghar wale alag kr den ye alag bat hai par hum khud se ye nahi kar payenge kisi v qeemt par nahi.....agar nahi deta mobile to shayad usko lagta k hum ignore kr rahe hain ya maine usko dhoka diya hai jaisa k pehle v usne mujhse kaha tha ek bar.....khair ab de to diya hi hai jo hoga bura hi hoga jante hain hum......is bar aur v bura anjam hone wala hai mera...........gud night 

"bari ziddi hai" lakh samjha do lakh problem ho jaye par manegi nahi........ab madam ko mobile chahiye.....khud to humko call kr nahi sakti is liye karwayi hai mere hi little student se....jante hain is k chalte aaage koi na koi problem jaroor hoga humko v nd usko khud v.....khair jo v ho ab uska zid hai to poora to karna hi hai....humse kehti hai k jara sa problem hua to mera sath chhor diya aap ne.....usko kaun samjhaye k kitna sath diya maine....chahte to bahut pehle hi us se rishta tor diya hota aaj ye sab kuch problem nahi hota....par jab v usko dekha khud k sath hi dekha..har waqt uske sath hi khara rehna chaha.aur the v us aakhri waqt tak jab tak k uske ghar walon ne mujhse use chhin na liya...usko lagta hai maine uska sath chhor diya par wo kya jane kaise kaise halat se gujre hain hum sirf uske sth k liye......ok dear kal mobile dene ki koshish karte hain tumko....jaise khush raho hum waise hi khush rakhenge tmko..chahe humko problem ho ya na ho....gud night baby

KSIS KA INTEZAR KARNA BAHUT MUSHQIL HOTA HAI....US SE V JYADA USKO BHULANA MUSHQIL HOTA HAI...ND SAB SE JYADA MUSHQIL BAT YEH HOTI HAI YE DECIDE KRNA K USKO BHOOL JAYEN YA USKA INTEZAR KAREIN.................

AVI THORI DER PEHLE HI USKA CALL AAYA THA PAR PATA NAHI WO KUCH BOLTI KYON NAHIN......AAWAZ SUNNE KO TARAS GAYE HUM.....................MISSIN U BABY....GUD NIGHT

"SORRY" DO DINO  SE BAHAR THA SO KUCH LIKH NAHI PAYE......SHE HAD CALLED ME YESTERDAY BUT DINT SPEAK A SINGLE WORD.....I DONT KNOW WHY SHE DINT SPEAK ..SHAYD MAUKA NAHI MIL PAYA HOGA KYONKI AISA TO HO NAHI SAKTA K WO HUMSE BAT NA KARNA CHAHE......KHAIR JAB SE USKA CALL AAYA DIL ME EK GHABRAHAT SI BANI HUI HAI K PATA NAHI KYA BAT HUA HAI AUR YE TAB TAK RAHEGA JAB TAK K USKA CALL FIR SE AA NA JAYE AUR WO BAT NA KAR LE HUMSE............TABIYAT AAJ KAL KUCH THIK NAHI HAI MERI .....WO HI AS USUAL SARDI KA PROBLEM HAI......

pyar to wo humse bahut krti thi par shaq v bahut karti thi....nd shaq isi liye karti thi k pyar bahut krti thi wo humse......ek bar v koi ye keh de k maine ekhlak ko kisi aur larki se bat krte dekha ya suna.......bas itna kafi hai uska temprature barhane k liye...apne se soch leti hai bahut door ka bat bina sach jane...aisi hi kuch galatfahmiya in dino v pal k rakhi hui thi.......shayd uske sath aisa is liye hita hai bcz she love me so much.........thanks......missin u baby....gud night

"AAJ V KOI CALL NAHI AAYA".....Woh na Ayega hume Maaloom tha iss
shaam Bhi____Intezaar usska Magar kuchh soch kar karte Rahe.. .. .....SARI JINDAGI LAGTA HAI USKI INTEZAR ME HI GUJAR JAYEGI............MISSIN U SO MUCH BABY...GUD NIGHT

Chor di teri duniya teri khushi ke liye,
Jee sakenge na ab hum kisi ke liye,,,,

Tera milna aur bicharna ek khawab tha,
Teri chahat to thi dil lagi ke liye,,,,

Mere AanJaM me har subah andhera raha,
Chiragh dhonda bohat roshni ke liye,,,

Apni Qismat me ashkon ki Soghat thi,
Hum taraste rahe ek Hansi ke liye,,,,

Teri Judai se barh kar kya gham hoga,
Zakham kafi hai yehi Zindagi ke liye... 

"NO CALL TDAY" MISSED HER ALL DAY LONG...... SHE MIGHT NOT GET ANY CHANCE TO MAKE ANY CALL.....BUT I KNW SHE ALWAYS WANT ME TO CALL BUT UNABLE TO DO SO...AKSAR USKI KAHI HUI BATEIN YAD AATI REHTI HAIN....AJ EK BAT YAD AAYA BAHUT HANSI AAYI.....HUMKO BAHUT JOR KI SUSU LAGI THI AND MERA PAJAMA KA JARBAN NAHI KHUL RAHA THA...IS PAR KYA YAD AAYA I KNOWN IT BETTER AGAR WO SUNTI TO USKO V YAAD AATA.....SOME OF UR MEMOIES MAKE ME CRY A LOT.....MISSIN U SO MUCH DEAR....HUM KITNI HI KOSHISH KR LEN USKO BHULA NAHI PATE HAI.   KITNA DIN HO GAYA USKO THIK SE DEKHE HUE...KASH EK BAR THIK SE DEKH LETE EK BAR USKO. BAHUT DIL GHABRATA HAI KABHI KABHI KYA KAREN KUCH SAMAJH NAHI AATA.....WO KHUD V BAHUT PARESHAN HOGI ND I KNW HM SE V JYADA........APNA KHAYAL RAKHNA...MISS U DEAR GOOD NIGHT

"USKE CALL NE HI AAJ JAGAYA HUMKO" ACHNAK SE USKA CALL AAYA ADHI NEEND ME HI UTHAYA PAR KISI NE KUCH BOLA NAHI..SHAYAD USKO MAUKA NAHI MIL PAYA HOGA...AS USUALLY USKO YAD KR K HI AAJ KA V DIN GUJRA..SHAM KO FIR CALL AYA BAT HUI PAR POORI NAHI..KHAIR FIR V AAJ USKA AAWAZ KUCH THIK LAGA"AP KAISE HAIN" AKSAR YAHI WORD HOTA HAI USKA JAB V CALL AATA HAI..BAHUT BECHAIN HOTI HAI MERE BINA..I KNW IT WELL PAR MAI KYA KARUN KYA KARUN....CHAHATA TO USE LE KR BHAG SAKTA THA AND I M SURE K WO MERE SATH AA V JATI BAS EK AAWAZ DENE KI DER THI.....PAR MERI SAB SE BARI GHALTI KAHO YA SAHI K MAINE APNI FAMILY AND US ME SE PEHLE FAMILY KO CHUNA....SHAYD MERI FAMILY KO MERI SAB SE JYADA JAROORAT THI..HUMNE AISE AISE BURE DIN V DEKHEN HAIN K I JUST CANT TELL......YAHI SAB SE BARI WAJAH HAI MAI HUMESHA APNI FAMILY KO AAGE RAKHTA HOON.....KHAIR JO V HO YE SAB TO MERI APNO MAJBOORI HAI ND I ACCEPT IT..MERA KOI HAQ NAHI BANTA HAI K APNI MAJBOORI K CHALTE DOOSRE KO TAQLEEF DOON....AUR MAINE DIYA HAI USKO TAQLEEF BAHUT TAQLEEF,,,HUMSE BEHTAR IS BAT KO KOI NAHI JAN SAKTA K KIS HALAT ME WO REHTI HOGI...BARISH HO RAHI HAI AVI SOYI NAHI HOGI, I KNOW HER..AGAR KAL CALL AYA USKO TO YE BAT WO HUMKO BATAYEGI K RAT KO BARISH HO RAHI THI HUMKO BAHUT BURA LAG RAHA THA.....MISS U  DEAR GOOD NIGHT

"NO CALL TDAY"
I MISSED HER A LOT TDAY. PATA NAHI KAISI HAI. CALL KARNA TOH CHAHTI HI HOGI PAR MAUKA HI NAHI MILA HOGA USKO.....BAHUT YADD AA RAHI USKI DIN BHAR US KE BARE ME SOCHTA RAHA K KAISI HAI......MISSIN U SO MUCH DEAR..GOOD NIGHT

"Hai himmat to aa jana 9 baje milne mai akele jaongi college"...ab ye bat hai to humko jana to tha hi...maloom tha wo bas jid kr rahi hai,wo akele college ja hi nahi sakti..ja hi nahi sakti means use log jane nahi denge...khair hum chale hi gaye us se milne ki ummid me..kuch der bad wo huko dikh hi gayi..dil to kiya k ja k mil le..par uska bhai satha gaya tha use exam dilwane....usne shayad mujhe dekha ya may be uske bhai ne..agar dekha to fir se ek naya problem jhelne ko taiyar baithe hain hum..hum wapas chale aaye uske bhai ko sath dekh kar...achanak 2 hours bad uska call aya dar laga k shayad uske bhai ne dekh liya hoga humko itni jaldi to wo wxam de kr aayi nahi hogi...khair himmat kr k call recieve kiya kuch der bad uska aawaz sunai diya....shayad exam jaldi khatam ho gaya hoga...awaz bahut slow tha lag raha tha k usko koi tension hai maine poochna chaha par wo nahi bata payi...bahut ghabrayi hui thi. kuch to bat jaroor tha....khair fir sham ko call aya..."kaise hain ap" ye word sun kar hi laga kuchh to bat jaroor hai,,,,pata nahi kyon nahi bata rahi hai....shayad uski shadi ka kuchh bat hua hoga ghar me...bahut tension hai pata nahi kab sab thik hoga,,,,

KAL SHAM KO BAT UI IS SE..KHUSH LAG RAHI HAI AB KUCH KUCH. SHAYAD USNE AB SACHAI KO ACCEPT KARNA SEEKH LIYA HAI....PAR AAJ V BACHHON JAISI BATEIN KRTI HAI.ZIDDI BAHUT HAI.BOLTI HAI UM EK BAR V HUMSE MILNE KA KOSHISH KYON NAHI KAR RAHE HO...KAISE SAMAJHAYEN USKO K HUM KITNA KOSHISH KIYE AJ V KAR RAHE HAIN....PAR SARI KOSHISHEIN NAQAM HTOI JA RAHI HAIN AB SHAYAD KOI UMMID V NAHI HAI...."KAL NAHI PARSO MILO HUMSE"..............KITNI ASANI SE KEH DETI HAI WO KHUD V JANTI HAI K HUM KYA WO KHUD V KOSHISH KR LE PAR HUMSE NAHI MIL PAYEGI.."PARSO MERA EXAM HAI AA JANA 9 BAJE HAI HIMMAT TO"...BAS GUSSA ME PHONE KAT DIYA USNE...."HANSI AATI HAI"AAJ V NAHI SUDHRI WO

TODAY IS EID BUT M FEELING VERY ALONE..AAJ USKA CAALL AAYA PAR BAT POORI NAHI HO PAYI...BAT TO BAHUT KARNA CHAHTE HAIN PAR KAISE..ROJ USKE GHR K DO CHAR CHAKKAR LAGA HI LETE HAIN IS AAS ME K SHAYAD O DIKH JAYE PAR AISI QISMAT V MERI NAHI HAI...KHAIR PATA NAHI KYA HOGA AAGE. DIL TO BAHUT KRTA HAI US SE ,ILNE KO PAR KAISE MILEN SAMAJH ME NAHI AATA.SHAYAD AB US SE KAVI NA MIL PAYEN